CherylLynnMason

I have a bad habit of feeling too much and I feel way too much for you... You make me feel beautiful and you chase away my thoughts you deal with all my bullshit. Our conversations get heavy and you let me express a side of myself I've always tried to hide... I care for you way way too much and you care for me too... But we could never be together you say age has separated us and that's ok I understand... But why do you care about what they say what they think. If our feelings are real should it matter at all?? I understand... It's ok I wanted to stay alone anyway...  

your in pain i can hear it and all i want to do is help you but i dont know how... you say you want someone to love well im right here... but because of what she did to you could you ever love me? would you ever love me? you say youll never fall in love again that youll never trust a bitch again... am i a bitch too? i can hear your pain and im sorry i cant help... you tell me im too innocent and your right ive never lived but i feel like its been enough... hell im almost 18 and ive never held a guys hand... im sorry 

These Feelings I have for you may be something special

These Feelings I have for you make me happy

These Feelings I have for you make me love life again

These Feelings I have for you make me think I could love someone again

These Feelings I have for you are overwhelming 

These Feelings I have for you are getting hard to hold back

These Feelings I have for you are banging at the doors of my mind

These Feelings I have for you have gotten out...

These Feelings You have for me are they true?

These Feelings You have for me are confusing

These Feelings You have for me aren't as strong as mine

These Feelings You have for me can be hidden 

These Feelings You have for me can be forgotten 

These Feelings You have for me are fading it seems

These Feelings You have for me aren't what I have for you

These Feelings You have for me are gone?....

Are they? Are they gone? You told me you liked me when I said I liked you then you block me out shut me out while I tried to figure out what to do?

 I wanted to be with you
 I wanted you to love me
 I wanted to be to you what you are to me....
 I wanted to share my feelings with you
 I wanted you to share your feelings with me 

To let you know that you could open up 
That I wouldn't hurt you I couldn't
That I was a shoulder to cry on when you needed it most
That I was someone to count on no matter what happened

 I hope I am that to you 
 I wish I was that to you 

But when I talk to you I feel like I've lost you. Or did I just lose myself? 
 
 I just wanted to give you everything I have everything I am.... 
 The Feelings I have for you are overflowing and I cant just forget and move on...
 I don't know if you want me to forget or move on..

So we go around again and again
How can I live when I feel there is no end
Round and round 
Another one goes and another even faster
Faster and faster
There is just no more excitement no more joy in it
We go around again so we must cheer and laugh
We pass around presents to make the time pass
We look forward to more gifts instead of the next day
As I feel my life rushing away
How can I live when I feel I will live endlessly
Around and around again and again
There is no end
There is no money
There are no birthdays
No Christmas
No New Years
There is no time
We all made it up to just watch it go by
To maybe bring joy to our sad short life's
We watch trees grow and grow and never die till you take an axe and decide end its life
We make monkey bars to climb on
And drinks to drink 
We make devices to connect us but not to one another
To the web and to others we would never have met without it
We text we laugh we cry we yell 
But with new devices comes new realisations that this world can be cruel not just to others but to our selves
And another and another and another with no meaning we talk and talk without speaking and we play and play without getting off the couch
I could cry and cry without a soul who'd hear
The only thing that's real is the earth the trees and plants that grow and grow without a sense of time just living
Or the bird that sings out your window for just the reason of loving each other 
Another and another go out the window just like that
But the world keeps on spinning no matter when no matter how
Find a reason to look forward to tomorrow not when the next time you're getting presents is
Find nature find love in each other 
I cant wait for Another and another trip around the sun

~Cheryl Mason (2017)

I'm in love again but that's no surprise I tried to stop time but I cant stop myself from falling for him. We are exactly the same and the exact opposite your my passion and my competition the only one who will challenge me and win at that! We talk about forever we've both been hurt before. I can tell you anything and you can too the only thing that's in our way 2,113.1 million miles and it makes me feel so lonely I know we are together but I cant feel you. I feel the need to feel you close to me. This is the first time any ones made me feel like this is it love I wouldn't know even if it was. All I know is that id kill anyone that hurt you and id step in front of a train if it meant that you would be happy. A month being together flew by like a week. I love it when you laugh you care so much about everything. I feel like I don't deserve you but then again you told me the same. I just hope I can be everything you need ill try my hardest. I get swallowed by jealousy every time you talk to someone else but I have to have faith that you'll stay with me. Even if he does leave me, finds someone else he loves more that'd be fine I just want him to be happy. If he tries to fly away I wont tie him down. I think your the one I want to spend the rest of my life with but that's for time to decide I guess.